Do you ever feel like in your quest or journey to be happier, you find that the people surrounding you are way too serious or too pessimistic? I feel like the people in my life are not on the same page. Not to be hypocritical or anything. I spiral down into depression a lot, but when I strive to have a day filled with positivity and happiness and laughter and fun, it feels like I'm discovering more and more that the reason I can't be those things is because I'm stuck in an environment filled with people who don't want to change or who continue to do the same things over and over again.

I'm just trying to free myself from this prison, and I feel like secretly other people don't want me to succeed. Maybe misery just loves company. Am I being paranoid?