You are mutilating YOURSELF over the stupidity of thinking you even have to buy a ton of gifts for everyone !!!
It was a gift for my family. One that would have been really good for us but due to my stupidity cost us about $140 more than it was supposed to I feel like a complete ****ing up. It wasn't really about Christmas. It's about me spending money and ****ing up so badly. How I just caused us to loose over $100. I got those things for us. It was half price and I would have bought it at half price even if I had to borrow money. The thing is I didn't do the code right. . . I It would have been very very good for us.

[B] You just can’t afford it F^#^ people if they can’t understand gifts are not needed for them , buy for kids ? [\B] I’m only getting things 50% off or more. I only have 7 more people to shop

You constantly run out of money to even feed your family every month I'm not a good money manager. It's my fault we're constantly running out of money. I get enough.Especially because I do stupid stuff like that.

yet you are focusing on a stupid holiday ???? I know it's stupid but this holiday means a lot to me.

L, please get your priorities right I'm really really trying to distract myself. I don't really know how to get my priorities straight.

Stop making your life and body a bloody mess. It’s always a mess nothing productive helps at least I feel better for 2-5 min. I’m not injuring anything important even though I so want to.

Don’t you need a car running , gas and insurance know I need a car. I'm spending my car money. We have to find a car before we can sell/scrap our car. So it doesn't cost our plate changed. Honestly it’s looking like the earliest we can get a vehicle is late February.


Plus food on your table more that material gifts likely forgotten and discarded in days or weeks by your family ??? I If your parents can spend a thousand on gifts that’s great , obviously they can afford it … It still means I have to get them something.

You need basic supplies and food for your family first. I’m trying, I really am.

I just can’t wrap my head around your priorities. It’s mostly distraction.

Keep your self harm clean unless you want a infection that will cost money to heal that you don’t have. I’m going to try to take care of it but honestly I want to add to it.

Sorry if I was too blunt but it’s all truth you just can’t see it. I don't mind your bluntness.