I think I have to take into account that I have had bulimia disorder and binge eating disorder and not be so hard on myself. Sometimes I feel so compulsive about eating and for my disorder that is normal. I wanted to buy snack food like bags of cheetos and chips and likewise stuff but have not. They are what always puts weight on me and I have been taking that into account lately. The holidays for me are not times to try and lose weight and it has always been that way; hard to change old habits. I feel so deprived if I don't chow down a bit during these times. I had a normal meal today and a BK meal with a desert. Not as if I ate the whole store. So, I can feel okay with myself. I've been walking past the pastries and nuts in the store at least and the snacks. Have to find ways to feel better about myself.

I think we are all good people with eating problems and ways we view ourselves. Not a reason to beat the hell out of ourselves; after all we are not horrible ax murderers...lol