Im doing great today. Well this morning I was still dealing with the SI but by the afternoon I was fine again. I worked with the kids to clean and rearrange all of their bedrooms and them played hide and seek with the youngest.

Apologized to my H for acting the way I was. He told me again that they love me and want/need me around and that I can always call him at work if I start feeling that way when he isnt home. Then we had some fun before he headed to work (love it when my libido is up!)

Finally emailed my T back now that Im calm and I can say rational things because before all I could type was a lot of F yous towards everyone and how I was giving up on everyone plus life. And now having a bath and made popcorn for the kids to have with a movie which is almost over then right away will be putting them to bed and i think I will clean my kitchen.