If there is something I can’t deny ia that he hurt me pretty bad. I thought so many times wth am I doing with this guy? Every time he did something nice he would messed up so bad. I put up with more than all my relationships combined and I still wanted to be with him. It’s funny but not really that I recall all the moments that were supposed to be special for example my birthday on October he woke me up with “the mañanitas” and followed with birthday sex and he literally said come and blow out your candle, I rolled my eyes when I heard the words come out of his mouth, no need to say that just to satisfy himself, the following day he takes me out to celebrate my birthday and didn’t bother to ask what I wanted to do he just took me to a place he’d been wanting to go. It was never about me! He did some nice things at the beginning when he was trying to get me to go out with him, that’s how I ended up with him but I realized that it was his tactics. I write and I can’t believe that is me who I am talking about. I don’t know if what I feel is being in love or what the hell is going on but it affects me so bad that before I opened my eyes this morning I was already thinking about him and I felt so miserable all day at work thinking why I called him last night. I shouldn’t be thinking if he is hurting or caring about anything about him. I just want to move on! I always been a sad person, things that are considered normal to everyone are not for me. Tonight I went out with my brother, co-worker and son and I had such a good time and I’m so relaxed and this is how I want to feel not just tonight. I don’t think I’m asking for a lot! I just want to move on!!!