Whisper... I thought about you last night, and I had trouble sleeping. I was awake for an hour or so. I googled the information on how to do research on mental health, that which specialization I should do, how should I prepare for it, and if the institution of my dreams offers drug discovery course. I found nothing except for the fact that I should specialize in biology and learn the rest of steps when I go for PG and doctoral degree there.

I am so sorry you're going through this... You did not use to be like this. I wish you a better life. If there was a drug that could make you less depressed, if there was something I could do, not only for us both for the whole mankind.... if only there was a way.