I think another part of the problem is I am paranoid that everyone hates me becuase I am being selfish and trying to care for myself. I have always dealt with everyone elses problems and been there for them but I'm tired of it. I did it for so long that I felt like I had to keep all my problems inside because no one would want to deal with it. They have enough problems without mine. But I'm tired. I have to deal with me and not care what my family and friends think. I just don't know how to do it. I don't want to let anyone down.