So the student I work with is going to be in the hospital for at least a couple of weeks I am so worried about her. All we know is her swallow study “didn’t go well”. I don’t know what that means. I know the speech therapist was advocating for a feeding tube. I’m also worried about that for selfish reasons. If she gets a feeding tube, she will have a nurse with her instead of me, and I’m afraid I’ll be put out of a job. But I’m trying not to worry about that since I honestly don’t know what will happen. I definitely have my job for at least another two weeks. I’ll just be shuffled around to different classrooms every day. Not ideal. I get nervous going into other classrooms.

I meant to get to the gym today but I didn’t fall asleep until late last night and It was pouring my the time I got out of work so I said screw it and went home and took a nap. It was a great nap. I hope I’ll sleep tonight. I’ve been struggling with insomnia off and on for a couple of weeks now. It’s not every night, I’d say every other night. I’m up until after midnight. I don’t know why. I have no other mood symptoms and I’m not particularly stressed out so who knows. I’ll just keep taking my melatonin and valerian root and hope it helps.

I see pdoc tomorrow. I’m going to ask to lower the haldol. I only get psychotic in mood episodes and I haven’t had an episode in seven months. I’d like to see how I do on a lower dose. It’s fast acting so if things start getting hairy it’ll be easy to go back up and even out. At least that’s what I hope.