I am getting more and more depressed as time goes by. My world feels like it is getting darker and darker. I see Pdoc next Monday. I am used to being dark, but I am kind of getting afraid. I continue to be the odd person that I am and having panic attacks over multiple meaning words. WTF is this? Is there a name for it? I really am weird, or at least I think so. I don't want to have another psychotic episode. When I had that, I stared at the wall and didn't even blink. I haven't gotten that bad, yet.