I hope you start to feel better. This time of year is hard for me. I had a bad incident happen the 1st week of Dec. 4 years ago; it sent me into my worst relapse, and I only barely turned that around in time to avoid the hospital. But I hate the anniversary of that. I think H forgets, doesn't realize the level of shame, or even the feeling of bringing things like that on myself.

If I could, I'd bury my head in the sand and not emerge until the end of January.