My Support Forums - View Single Post - Dear T:I Really Need to Tell you Something... Part XXXVI

LabRat27 · Nov 26, 2018, 10:15 PM

<24 more hours. I still haven't decided how much I want to tell you. Part of me wants to just get it over with and admit to everything. But I'm so scared you'll think less of me. Part of me also hopes that you'd say what I want you to say. That you'd reassure me.

Last night as I fell asleep I was imagining you being comforting and saying what I wanted to hear and being visibly affected by my pain. I feel so creepy and pathetic for that.

Possible trigger:

I know it's ****ed up, and it's not why I did it, but part of me is hoping that if I tell you I cut because of this there'll be some indication that it bothered you. I kind of felt it a bit the last time when you asked me to wait until the next session and talk to you about it before SHing. I didn't make any promises though.