evenmore? more i comment please? i only intend to say that fear can be such a powerful driving force.... and you have chosen a way to use it positively... i am positive without doubt that your mother is thankful...

i too care for an aging and crippled mother.... and she has given me love and acceptance all her days, even before she was handicapped.... i want to help her... she tries so hard and has hurt so much...

i really dont know if it can work for you Evenmore, but i do find a lot of meaning in my life for that reason as well as my 'lost' son...

and i have my own life too.. so it has really benefited the both of us (mom and i) in positive ways.... its been good for my heart to return to family....

thank you for sharing Evenmore....