I’m so sorry to myself that I can't help loving her and admiring her as I found nothing special about her, I feel like I'm so ugly and I truly hate looking at the mirror, and I also talk to my self as I've no one to talk to and when I try to speak to someone I fail, it's not normal, I talk like there is someone in front of me and I imagine that person and I wave with my hands to him while talking to him, the funniest thing is that I know he does not exist I am sure that I'm crazy, I've never seen such a thing before, please I need some help.