I keep going through the same cycle. It starts with me doing well. I’m taking meds, doing self-care and using my supports. Then I start to slip into a mild depression or a hypomania. Sometimes I reach out and sometimes I don’t; I think I’m getting better at reaching out. Eventually the floor drops out and I start descending further and further into depression. I don’t usually reach out then. I stop taking meds and doing the things to take care of my self and things keep getting worse. Eventually I reach a crisis point and I reach out, or someone forces me to accept help. I start taking meds again and doing self-care. I reach out to my supports and I am okay, for a little while.

I’m having doing fairly well right now, with mild variation, but I’m worried about the floor dropping out again.