I use to be totally independent. In my younger years I often worked 3 Jobs

But my life exploded at age 43

Since then if I Had to manage everything on my own sure I could do it but I would be scared to death and screw up a lotta bills at first. Plus his income would not be there anymore so just paying for basics would be impossible.

I have the mental illness and numerous chronic pain health issues that would be a huge obstacle.

I could never afford to stay in our home even tho it’s paid for , there is too much upkeep I’m not able to do. I would have to move ... somewhere??! closer to my daughter?? but I can afford to live there.

So yes in many ways I am very dependent on my husband. Can’t imagine life without him.

I just plan on dying first.