If I can get myself ok with medications that control my depression anxiety panic etc. then my only other issues are fatigue and chronic back pain. The back pain is sporadic but severe I’ve got scoliosis and kyphosis, buldging disks , torn ligaments ,degeneration , osteoporosis lol you get it. My backs messed up.

My husband has life insurance that will help me be ok and my kids are teens and very helpful. I think if I’m back in WA not in Germany I have a good friend group that’s like family who are very helpful and supportive. I might need to hire someone to clean and get help driving out of town cuz I get bad panic when driving.

I’d be ok. It would be hard if my panic keeps me from food shopping but I think I can order groceries now online lol.

I do have conversations with my husband about how he’s not allowed to talk to my doctors. Unless I’m suicidal and he’s worried about my safety I’m mature and alway make sure if I need meds I’m in them. And like now I prob shouldn’t have gone off meds but I was great for 5 years. Now I need them and I noticed before anyone snd sm getting back on. I know not everyone can do that and recognize when there starting to loose control but I watch myself my behavior with my kids friends strangers etc and can tell when I’m off and not right.

So I think I’d be ok. I’d prob be like s hermit staying in my house most of the time but I can blame that on being a crazy artist 👩*🎨