Hi everyone--

I hate this time of year. From Thanksgiving for about 1 1/2 weeks my mind is in PTSD hell. It's been this way for over 20 years and I really want it to stop. I was really hopeful this year but no, same old crap. Two nights of nightmares so next to no sleep. Lots of little things going wrong and I'm very frustrated and anxious. I just want to get to this weekend so I can put up the holiday decorations and have something else to focus on instead of this instinctual fight or flight crap. I think I shocked my husband when I had finished straightening out the home loan process (bank had to resend a document for him to review), then got a call from yet another robodialer. I screamed into the phone and hung up. He was like, whoa...I've been trying to keep my feelings from him so he wouldn't be stressed out, but it slipped.

I'll be okay, though. It will end soon and things will be fine.

Love and hugs to everyone.