Dear T,
Am I supposed to disregard the connections that I am making all the time? Are you sure it is safe for me to do so? You tell me that you didn't have a secondary motive to recommending the book. I hope I don't drive you to the brink of insanity. I am going to really keep trying diligently to keep moving forward. I feel like I am at a point where I can start to let go of the supervigilant paranoia and just try to trust that things are just as they are. I feel humiliated for being so "odd", but this is who I am and I want to get better.


My Goals:
I am getting a fitbit for Christmas, and I will be setting goals for walking nightly.
I am going to try to ignore the part of me that is somewhat paranoid at the moment.

I'm going to go to bed a lot earlier than I do now. I hate going to sleep.
I am going to do something in nature (walk in a park or something) at least once weekly.

Spend more time with family. Work on family dynamics. Work on work dynamics.


Thank you for not abandoning me while I am in this completely odd sense of being. I am so fortunate to have you as my therapist.