Hate to see you struggle.

Maybe right now do the opposite of what you want.

Stay in bed all day ? No get up

Lack of self care ? Do it all daily regardless of want too

Don’t want meds? Agree to take them for a month.

Do you have a T ? It can really help stay on track when it’s not just all Bipolar. Situational stuff can cause a lot of bipolar problems , but hey you know all this.

Keep keeping on