I am getting real sick of this heart condition, I couldn't swim without having a event. I know it's stupid since apparently I have exercise intolerance but I really want to lose weight. I am eating healthy but exercise is the other important key. I swam one lap and jumped out of the pool feeling chest pain and the urge to lose my lunch. We did smoothies again which is nice; but again anxiety reminded me they will eventually get sick of dealing with me and just live their life.

M asked me if I wanted to go to the movies this weekend and I haven't necessary been avoiding being alone with him, but I kind of have. So I don't know what to do with us. I still think it is too early but every time he is near I get the good kind of heart twinge.

The Christmas Party invitations have gone out, budget has been set, I have distributed forms for everyone to fill out on their favorite things so it makes things easier. Also my cats were so cute when I got home that I feel I must share how cute they are.