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Originally Posted by TheSeaCat
I used to be that girl that would tell you exactly what was on her mind without another thought. I know better now to always think before I speak and that some things are way better to be internalized. Now if I'm hypo that is another bear altogether I tend to be a lot more open and talkative the moment I notice I start oversharing or talking to people I don't usually talk to it's time to have my medication played with.
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I think right now I bounce so much between hypomania and depression, it is just hard to control things. I am not even sure it's a med thing, maybe something I can address in therapy. Not only is it a stressful time of year: the holidays, my daughter's birthday, anniversary of my mother-in-law's 1 year passing away (hitting H hard now), and a hard anniversary of a very bad moment of my life. So I just wonder maybe stress is making life extra hard right now. Even before my daughter was born, before the anniversary of this bad event, before MIL's death, I found it a hard time. Too many false pictures of glorious happiness, as if there is no conflict & holidays are perfect is hard for me, always has been.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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