I feel so painfully sad today. I am so tired of this shame I carry around. I don't know if how I handled the issue yesterday was idiotic or okay. I just feel so utterly sad and depressed that I can't just go to work and do what I have to do and then leave. I'm tired of being so emotional. I want to be more Spock-like. I am in so much emotional pain inside and there's nothing I can do. I feel like I am on the verge of tears or a break-down. Why am I so disordered? My ego voice won't stop heckling me with an air horn. This was one of my favorite statements from 10% Happier.