Stream of consciousness here....sorry....

4 AM and I'm wide awake. My PRNs became meds yesterday and I'm not sure what to do (ok, I'm probably taking some old hydroxyzine and contacting my pdoc for more) but this is bad.

Crap, I know why. Another med error. 4 in 6 weeks. I got a new bottle of clozapine and didn't open it. So I missed the dose. I just took 100 mg so I'll probably be knocked out for the day. I have no idea though, I've never taken 100 mg.

I don't know what is wrong with me and messing up the meds. I haven't made this many errors in years, since things were much less controlled. I don't think I'm particularly up or down that would affect my attention span. But I'm going to have to do something; I can't keep making these errors, especially when the errors have nothing to do with the med changes.

This is kind of scaring me.....messing up clozapine is a great way to kick off a huge episode. I'm almost at 3 years out of IP and I don't want to mess that up with a stupid mistake.