Hi I’m currently on my third time in my life trying new pills to get me stable or somewhat at least. My previous two times I didn’t get relief so I stopped taking them withhtout doctor support. Anybody get stable or somewhat? What did that look like for you? Is there hope to not have ups and downs for the rest of my life? I’m currently on seroquel and have recently had symptoms again so we tried to add antidepressants but I have bad reactions to ssri medication. I’m already so tired of these moods. I’m frustrated. I’m getting close to being done again. I just want to hide. I feel so lonely.