I saw your other post too, describing your situation. You are such a sweet person on here, i would never have guessed all that happened to you.

Honor your mother and father always seemed like a weird commandment to me. It doesnt say to love or respect or obey or even take care of, kind of like its assumed parents were gonna mess up. Honor is like, bow to them as they bowed to you? You were gifts to each other. Honor your gift as they honored their gift.