Something poped into my mind, was wondering if this is true or just a part of my negative thinking that I need to get away from somehow?

So she was going to phone me Tuesday but I got tired and text her I was going to bed, looked like she was looking forward to talking to me but anyway I called her and we talked for an hour today, talked about a bunch of stuff including what about phone calls? like if she likes them or if people call her often? Nobody calls her, not even her sister and said she guesses nobody likes talking on the phone, said I would call her once a month and she was ok with that. She does not keep in contact with anyone by the sounds of it, they all have to text or call her to stay around. But she said she's not talked to one of these girls in a loooong time and should invite her over.

What popped into my head was...when I asked to see her place she just said it's too messy and would have to clean up, but the person she not seen in a long time was going to visit her at her place so she must really hate me or something and maybe she's only put up with me because she feels guilty for taking all that money and doesn't have the heart to tell me to beat it? Like I said, I am going to slowly push myself away from her but I will be thankful for all the amazing times I had with her, especially that 1 summer we got really close even if we only saw eachother because I was giving her money, October we only hung out because she felt guilty for the guy at my work saying she used me for my money since I told her asap what happened. She also has not text me "xo" or "Was thinking of you" anymore either, even at midnight like that 1 time, not for a long time. It hurts but maybe I will find someone who cares about me, I doubt it lol.