I’m going to be honest. Most of your recent posts have sounded hypomanic. Especially since people close to you are concerned, I would be too. Now this might not end badly, as some people can have hypomania and never progress to mania, and never crash into depression. However in my experience and reading stories here on the boards, this is VERY rare. So I would be careful. I know you don’t want meds so I would focus on getting into therapy to focus on developing coping skills to help you get through this without ruining your life.