I didn't want to post here anymore as it was causing me to feel more tense and worrisome with my own therapy but it looks like it's all ending soon anyway.

Got a bombshell that t is leaving in just a few short weeks (before xmas) and going to a whole new career.

Since we have been super close, I thought there might be hope to keep in touch or something but he said no. Went on about ethics even though he isn't going to do therapy anymore, for some reason, is renewing his license. I can't even deal with this.

Last year I had the worst loss of my life around the holidays with my beloved dog and T helped me through it, now I'm losing him before xmas and no one to help. I feel like our whole relationship is a lie and he was only nice to me out of pity.

All I can take away from this is that it was a bad idea to trust and be close to someone, something I wont allow to happen again. I knew he seemed 'too nice' to really actually like me or care.

I'm not sure how to even go on, I've got nothing in my life anymore. Just my other dog who is almost 16 and wont be here much longer either. I WONT go to therapy with anyone else, especially after this... no way. I can't try trusting someone again, not worth it.

Only 3 sessions to go and it's goodbye forever, idk how to cope. I'm not even sure I can go to the last one. I'm just so broken. Angry I ever tried therapy in the first place.