I have very low-esteem and I am full of self-doubt. This has affected all my life: socially, and professionally. Currently, I have no friends, and my old friends don't bother asking about me, although I have tried to reach out to them many times. Needless to say I have never been in any romantic relationship. I'm also currently unemployed.

I live in a complete isolation with no human interactions at all. I have retreated from all interactions in life because of my low-self esteem and disappointment in life. I cannot do anything to change my reality because my negative talking takes over my occasional motivation to do something. I am thinking maybe a new job can change my reality, but again employers don't consider my resume, and I have applied for hundreds of jobs.

Things become worse with time, and I don't see a light at the end of tunnel. I haven't gone out of my apartment since last Thursday when I went to buy some groceries. This is my life now. It's painful and meaningless.