Are you going to email me back? I think you're not, but I keep waiting. Is it because I said I wanted to terminate? I think I left you with nothing left to reply. I'm sorry if I'm disappointing you. I know it's not your fault. I know you tried. I did too. I think I'm just unfixable. I can't connect. I can't feel your empathy. My defenses are too strong, and I don't know how to lower them. I'm too ****ed up for therapy. I haven't felt this hopeless in a very long time.