So sorry. Abandonment by a T sucks.

I very much recommend a good support group, if you can find one. And there's this forum, too, which I have depended on a lot. My current support group has people in it I have learned to trust, over the last 3 years. It's not an "institutional" support group, though -- it just grew out of some people in a meetup group who knew, because we had mentioned it, that we had all struggled with depression.

But I had tried groups for years and that, combined with years of (frustrating, ineffective?) therapy, may have made it possible for me to be somewhat open and also, very important, pick up, sometimes, on how much I could trust the other people about some issues and when I couldn't and yet still kept coming back for the good parts -- which have gotten better as, I think, have I.

PM me if you like about that -- PM me if you like, too, about anything else and I will try to "be there" as best I can.