Welcome, SVanThor Sorry about the b/p getting worse around finals. When I was in college and grad school, my ED always got worse around finals, journal publication (had to be ASAP for my professor), thesis defense, i was a mess.

Today I ran and ran and ran. It seemed to be the only way to get rid of the voices & memories in my head. (I am coming up on a very bad anniversary.) I dissociate A LOT while running, it's unsettling how much. Then, I eat pretty normally, but today, I know I couldn't come near making up the deficit being as I don't binge. I have the purging type anorexia but all the purging is through exercise so it's pretty much an invisible ED, H ignores it though lately since the pdoc has been getting on my case and certain days (depending on what I'm wearing), H will tell me to cut back on the exercise or eat more.

My head knows I need to gain weight. The same crazy mind doesn't want to gain weight

Time has gone by. I know H hasn't forgotten about this event, but I do think he may not realize I am near the anniversary. I need to say something, let him know, though I don't want my daughter knowing about it beyond something bad happened to me around this time of the year.