Thanks for the dog suggestion. My dog is too old and doesn't enjoy other dogs anymore. I wouldn't do that too him and I'm too worn down to add another. I volunteer with dogs sometimes.

I just am paying the price for allowing myself to get close to someone, I knew it would end badly if I did. He's only proving my theory.

I knew he was looking to leave the career, we talked about it. I just didn't expect it so randomly. Especially being a T and knowing how tough holidays can be for many, he's kicking us all in the face this time of year. All because this lame new job is more important. I used to love being with him every week.... he made me feel like I mattered, like someone really cared, at times I felt loved. He made me feel happy again. Now I see I never really mattered, and he didn't care. He's easily deleting me from his life. Like the useless piece of crap I am.

I'm trying hard to delete all his emails, pics and texts. I know I need to delete him as well. I just can't believe this is happening to me. I thought he was better than this. He's been so good to me, and he knows Christmas is my hell, but why not add more fuel to my fire this year? Sigh...

*Oh and the job is at a call center*