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Originally Posted by DP_2017
Thanks for the dog suggestion. My dog is too old and doesn't enjoy other dogs anymore. I wouldn't do that too him and I'm too worn down to add another. I volunteer with dogs sometimes.
I just am paying the price for allowing myself to get close to someone, I knew it would end badly if I did. He's only proving my theory.
I knew he was looking to leave the career, we talked about it. I just didn't expect it so randomly. Especially being a T and knowing how tough holidays can be for many, he's kicking us all in the face this time of year. All because this lame new job is more important. I used to love being with him every week.... he made me feel like I mattered, like someone really cared, at times I felt loved. He made me feel happy again. Now I see I never really mattered, and he didn't care. He's easily deleting me from his life. Like the useless piece of crap I am.
I'm trying hard to delete all his emails, pics and texts. I know I need to delete him as well. I just can't believe this is happening to me. I thought he was better than this. He's been so good to me, and he knows Christmas is my hell, but why not add more fuel to my fire this year? Sigh...
*Oh and the job is at a call center*
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In my experience, therapists are among the most unreliable of people. Their "people skills", which allow them to make it easy for others to feel close to them, aren't necessarily matched with real caring. So, yeah, it ends badly.
But -- they aren't all people, by a long shot. And now you know.
And can avoid people like him. But not necessarily everybody.
I don't think "life lessons" like this are a part of what I signed up for in therapy. I think it really sucks.
But it is what it is. You know now what it feels like to feel close to someone -- even if they turn out to be unreliable. It's not impossible to find someone reliable who you can be close to, too. But -- when one hasn't done it yet it can seem impossible. I sure know that world. One day at a time, though, things can change.