Thanks for all the replies.

Not trusting people was something I did long before therapy. I felt I had to trust him for therapy worked but it was never 100%. I never trust anyone that much.

As for 2x a week. I think it's only this week. Usually forbidden but I'm glad he agreed. I wish I could the remaining weeks because I cant get past this in 3 sessions.

I hate how he's already moved on. He's just dealing with us while he has to. The care is gone. I don't matter