I've already forgiven everyone else, that was the easy part, I can just forget about them. But it's not so easy to forgive myself for all the stupid things I've done, all the ways I've messed up, all the time I've wasted. Some of the smaller things I've been able to forgive myself for but the main things, I just don't know how.

All I can really tell myself is that it's over now, the damage is done, nothing I can do about it now. All I can do is move on, and not make the same mistakes again.

Regret is such a pointless emotion, I can't change what I've done (or not done). Being angry at myself is stupid and dragging me down. And it's totally pointless. But when I think of how badly I messed up and the consequences, I just can't help getting angry.

But this is a big problem, and something I really need to work on. I want to be free of this. One part at a time maybe.