((((((freewill)))))))))))))))
I can understand "speechless terror" Maybe not the same as yours.......But i understand..........

Find your voice (((((((freewill))))))))) let it out
cause you are worth being here, You matter so much......

After you let some of it comes the peace.........
But peace here on earth with us...................

I hear you........((((((((freewill))))))))))))))))