My life is boring but unmistakable after a certain number of facts. If I just tell the facts of my life some of them are quite bizarre. I think leading up to my arrest last year I may well have been followed on social media. Actually I know this as a matter of fact, but I don't know how far the investigation went. I didn't change my username here but deleted some social media accounts for good. This is a place I come for healing. I write more when kind of stressed out but that is par for the course with bipolar.

I keep telling myself that I am lucky to be alive and get sunshine in my eyes even though the sun was making me nauseous today. All the news about climate change is making me feel sick sometimes too. It brings back that feeling of helplessness being so mistreated as a child by my parents. But they are not part of my life anymore so it is all on how I cope with those feelings which rose up today.