DP. Correct me if I am wrong but I think I remember you saying before that you often have sessions where you chat and don't often get into 'deep' topics. Is he aware of you intense your feelings are? I mean no matter what your feelings are about this what he is doing is terrible. I just mean that I hope you are able to get across to him just how difficult this is for you and how badly you feel about it all when you meet him next.