Was feeling pretty crappy most of the day, depressed and irritable. Starting to doubt the reduction in haldol. But I decided to go to the gym after work for the first time since March. I feel so much better now! I feel normal. I hope I continue feeling this way. It was really bad last night, I started letting my thoughts run away from me. No SI, just negative dark thoughts. I was panicking because it was so bad I was worried that I was going into an episode. If I feel ok tomorrow I can conclude that it was just a blip brought on by lack of sleep. If I don’t even after going to the gym then I might have to rethink the haldol reduction.

I told RS that I have depression. I just felt so awful last night I needed some comfort. I didn’t want to spring bipolar on him yet but I did say I’m on meds and in therapy. He doesn’t seem to be bothered by it. He’s really sweet. I’m excited to see where this goes. I’m not completely carried away like I was with my ex in the beginning (thx hypomania) so I think we are taking things at a healthier pace. I’m glad there’s only one more day left until I see him again though.

I hope I continue to feel ok tomorrow. And sleep well tonight. Last night I slept well so let’s keep it up body K thx bye.