I know this topic has been covered in the past, it's something I'm experiencing a bit at the moment. Wanting to be 'special' in some way to T. For example, I wonder whether he talks to his partner about how his day went and whether the day we meet is more rewarding to T, or if he thinks about me a bit more than about everyone he meets in a week, or something like that.

I think these thoughts (of mine) seem a bit immature, like a child wanting to be the teacher's favourite or wanting all the parent's attention just for them. On the other hand, I partly think it's understandable, because T has been such a hugely important figure in my life, while for him I'm a small part of his working week. So I guess it would help to redress that imbalance to know that our work was in some way 'special 'to T as well.

Final thought on this is that I have been emotionally stable for quite a long time now, haven't had any crises, and I seem to be finally reaching the point where I'm able to trust people, and that includes trusting T. So I might have thought that therapy would become less important to me after reaching such a stable point in life, but funnily it seems to be bringing up all these feelings about wanting to be special. Which is not what I was expecting.

Just wondering if anyone else feels something similar, and if anyone has any thoughts?