{{{{{{Candy}}}}}}} my dear friend. Waiting is hell and it certainly isn't helping your emotional frame of mind right now. You need to find that inner core that knows this doctor and have faith in him. I know what you are saying about it being splashed all over the internet, etc. Unfortunately, people are always interested in the bad things in life, even when they aren't always true. Go with your gut, have faith in him when others don't and remember the confidence and trust that was there when you saw him.

Please try not to keep taking all that Ativan. Meds will not help during this time. Just remember that inner core and have the courage to believe in him like you did before. He needs all the strength he can get to get him through this ordeal.

I'm worried about you. Please stay strong.

Mary Alice