((((((Eve)))))) It sounds like a shock to your system to find this out, and a trigger maybe? Even though you have moved forward with your life and have done the healing work.

It sounds like your ex bf is running himself into the ground. In a weird and sort of twisted sense (though there's a name for it: schadenfreude), you can be happy that you're not him, and not with him, and not around him anymore. You're you (you are healthy, intelligent, successful), you're with an awesome guy engaged to be married to him, and this guy is miles away.

I think you are (or were yesterday) in pain and just want this pain OFF you. Makes complete sense!!! Be extra kind to yourself this weekend. As humans we ALL have our things that bother us.

I wonder what would happen if you began to accept the pain you experience at times with this issue (acceptance does not mean you agree with it or think it's ok, it doesn't mean you like it). I wonder what would happen if you began to stop overly identifying with the thoughts you have about it. What if you just noticed your thoughts and began to label them ("Oh, there's those 'jerk / break up / hurt' thoughts" - name them what you want), and simply let them go? Even when they come up again.

Take care of yourself this weekend and do what you need to do for yourself. Post, concert, spend time with your love. I'm rooting for you.