Thanks, Buffy. I’m sorry too.

Why didn’t I get kindness and empathy from any of them? They don’t really like me. I’m really not important to them. Am I just a worthless person?

I don’t have perceived abandonment issues. I have real abandonment. Unless I can give in to their ways they won’t speak to me again. I was really bullied by my family.

One sister who gave me what my kids called a ‘sick burn’, ignoring me and saying she had to go get her oil changed never called again.

The only other one said she did nothing wrong. She probably won’t call again either. Even if she does, I’ll never feel the same about her now.

My mother ordered me to not go no contact with her. She said ‘that would be a sin’. What crap. She uses words to her advantage and means nothing, just manipulation.

My step father proved himself to be a creep who cares nothing for me. He’s just my mother’s husband. My own father never loved me either. He cut out from this world when I was small. I was only born to trap him. My mom actually told this to me.

I am a survivor of abuse and I don’t care for how much longer that life lasts. I’ve been really emotionally ill for such a long time now.