Seasonal allergies really got to me during my daughter's choir performance (held outdoors). It's gotten warm here again, in the low 70s. I had very dry eyes, and my right contact lens got into the white of my eye, got it out & back in (had some lens solution), but my eye is pretty sore now, so I've switched over to glasses.

Lately, I just want to curl in a ball and disappear. So tired of PTSD. So tired of the ED. So tired of panic attacks. So tired from distance running, but lately I am having to run more & more just to get rid of the pictures in my head, the should have done this, should have done that second guessing. And it all makes the ED happier because I can look in the mirror & see various bones, even more so, of course, if I bend over, I shouldn't look at the stupid mirror at all; it's worse than the scale for me lately.

Though maybe, maybe there may be good news from the university that keeps dangling the job in front of H and taking it away. It looks like they are processing paperwork for some position for him (though they have yet to tell H what the position is, when it starts, what the pay is). They've asked for references, a secretary has called needing to confirm info, get his social security number, he was emailed a syllabus for a couple statistics courses in industrial engineering. Fingers crossed. We can use some good news.