yeah - i regret the "connection" with my former youth counselor. It seemed like she cared about me and was concerned about me.... but really she just wanted me out of her hair and in "professional care". Before i stopped having any connecting with her at all, and i was "an adult", she would only talk to me if i appeared to have it together. So i started pretending to be all chipper and she'd pat me on the shoulder and walk off. If i was myself - gloomy and sad, she'd completely ignore me and not even make eye contact. I wish now (sort of) that I had never met her. SHe makes me really uncomfortable. I don't go anywhere near her and dropped that church. I even took her off my resumes because i didn't want to have to "bother" her any more. Evidently she "knew" something was wrong for years and all she did was tell me to go into counsleing - for which i knew my parents would kill me. SHe didn't get tha tmy family wasn't safe - and hoped all would be forgiven and I could then have a happy relationship with my family.

Kiya