I feel this way too, and I am ashamed of it. I have been special to romantic partners and friends, but not in my family. I was always a good student, team member , kid whatever, but never the best, the most, or really either standing out or falling down. My T is soooo busy. He even ut up new rules for his practice on his waiting room table bc he doesn't have time to talk to people individually, and he has lots of days off with his family. I just get forlorn that he doesn't remember/like me that well, except for the gothic C-PTSD story about me, and that makes me feel lost a bit.