So I'm forced to take a break from therapy due to sudden and negative changes in my life. Also my T is going on a holiday in December and there'll be those stupid holidays...

My T has asked me a few times whether I sing, play an instrument or at least listen to music. No I don't. I don't really enjoy or need music in my life. I don't even know what genre I like...

However I remembered that when I was a young child I used to like music singing. And when I was 6-10 my father used to teach me some very simple songs on the keyboard. It's been laying untouched since then, which is 20 years. I never learned to read music, all I could do was play maybe 10 simple folk tunes from memory.

Now that I feel my depression coming back due to all the stress and changes... Me and my T were thinking that maybe I should try that old keyboard again.

I can't say I'm excited, as I said I don't really like music in general... But I can try it to prevent the relapse of depression. I can already see red flags in my mood and behaviour suggesting time without T is going to be bad

I'm sorry I don't know why I'm writing this. Just needed to share my struggle.