today I had my shower (and as I predicted, felt gross afterwards)

then I had to order all my shopping- not the best of things to do, but it's gotta be done.

and now I have the rest of the day to act like a coutch potato (so just normal and that)
suicidal feelings still their- and lots of depression, but feel slightly better today.. given it's friday, and tomorrow (saturday the 1st), I get to open
my advent calendar for the first time

I can't believe it's 25 days until christmas day but it is