Right... I just don't know what else to do. It's more about remembering that 20 years ago music could make me happy. I've just "forgotten" about it.
I'll only try practicing once or twice and see how I feel. If I get anxious or triggered I won't do more. I've got nothing to lose. The unused keyboard is already at home, so it's not going to be a new purchase. Maybe just a trial and error thing. If not I'll try to think of something else...
I want to try those videos on YouTube that show you exactly what you need to press.